Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Love of my life
I frequently call Christy on the phone randomly throughout the day to chat about life and such. And quite often Lucas, her adorable 2 year old little boy, fights her for the phone... a small, but rather interesting obsession of his. Most of the time my ear is filled with button pushes and incoherent words that only mommy understands. A phone call like that usually leaves me 1. smiling from ear to ear, 2. laughing like crazy, and 3. with the biggest case of baby fever one can imagine.
I often recall the day i held him in my arms when he was born. A day i knew my life would change forever. He's not my child, but he is, in my mind, the next step into adulthood for both me and Christy. It was a sign of "growing up" and how fast life is passing us by.
So it was no surprise that i had a taste of "life passing by" when i called to chat with my friend and "the little man". Lucas - lover of chocolate, cars and emptying drawers - grabbed the phone from his mother and began spewing words I had never heard him say before. Apparently "little man" hadn't reached his word quota for the day. In an instant i was engaged in his world and, as I always do, mention how much I love him.
"Lucas, I love you", in the same tone I always say to him over the phone. My life changed in an instant because his very next response was, "Tasha"! He said my name (which i might add he had never done before, atleast not directly relating to me!). I felt proud and at the same time I melted as a tear came to my eye. I again admitted my love for this little boy on the other end of the phone and to show is gratitude he said "Thank you" in a most polite voice. That's exactly how i felt. "Thank you". Thank you for letting me love you. Thank you for loving me back. Thank you for sharing m&ms with me. Thank you for hello smiles and goodbye kisses. Thank you for giggly playtimes on the floor in your room and most of all... thank you for saying my name.
contributed by Natasha Beccaria on Tuesday, December 19, 2006 0 comments
Labels: children, growing up, life, love
Sunday, December 10, 2006
My Christmas List
It's not the first Christmas tree I had for just me, but it certainly is a special one. This tree means more to me than ever.
Not only am i celebrating the holidays, but this time last year I was still healing from all the major changes in my life. I was sad and scared and alone.
This year I am content and excited and, even though I have someone in my life right now, alone is not so scary. I have learned how to fill my life with love and family and friends and experiences that help me grow into the adult I have always dreamed of being.
My Christmas list is filled with hope for each and every one of you to discover the true meaning of this joyous season: Kindess, giving, love, family, friends, peace and of course thanking God above for all that you have.
Stop for a moment and enjoy it. Dont get caught up in the hussle and bussle of the season's crazy commercialism because, afterall... the greatest gift of all was not bought in Macys or Best Buy, but given freely for all the world to enjoy.
And so my life continues....
Happy Holidays everyone.
contributed by Natasha Beccaria on Sunday, December 10, 2006 0 comments
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