FREE HUGS

Inspiration at its best.

I walked three miles today

I walked three miles today
And one was for health
In the early evening hours
we, she and I, walked through woods
Both of us carrying extra weight
But mine having no excuse.

I walked three miles today
And one was for friendship
As the sun set through the trees
and over the water
We shared laughs and tears
Setting in motion our continued bond.

I walked three miles today
And one was for lost love
In the dark
angry, bitter, hurting
but no tears came
Fast and furious towards no destination
Until at last a peace I could live with.

I walked three miles today
Hoping for some revelation
And finding what really matters
health,
friendship,
and love,
no matter what shape it takes form.

All my ex's live... two doors down

How is it that I suddenly feel left in the dust of my own endless bullshit?

Being an "ex" puts you on this whole other level, atleast from my standpoint. Its like 10 years never existed. I am not saying I want him back because i dont. But a little f*@# respect would be nice! He has this "seemingly" perfect little life with a new wife and a kid on the way. I want to be happy for him, I really really do. All I ever wanted was for him to be happy, for both of us to be happy and he seems to have found it (atleast from my little loft two doors down).

So why do i find this little thing of being happy for him so very difficult? Because he has tossed every ounce of respect for me right out the window. Why? I HAVE NO IDEA. Maybe i hurt him? Maybe because we never fully had proper closure? I'd like to say I hope his new life goes to shit, but I really dont feel that way.

So what am I left with then? Bitterness and anger i seem to carry around on my shoulder because i dont have approval from my ex-husband to be happy? Screw that. Who wants to live a life like that? Not me. So, please, someone give me some advice about letting this go! Please.

Music and Emotions

Have you ever noticed how music can inspire you and enhance emotions buried deep inside? I actually use it to my advantage at times. When i want to be creative and write something inspiring, I listen to classical music. It helps me expand my mind, somehow. If I want to write a heartfelt letter or express my emotions, I listen to country music. If I want to get really deep inside and bring out my most inner feelings, I listen to something like James Taylor or Paul Simon. For some reason they have this amazing ability to express themselves so perfectly.

Tonight, as I write a heart-felt letter to a friend, I am listening to the country station on AOL Radio. Of course right now they arent really playing the most inspiring song. Oh well.